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Letter to II

I'm sorry, no I'm not
I'm done with caring
I'm done with loving
My heart hurts too much

I'm feeling tired of a sudden
I can't go to where you are anymore

Even if I want to be honest
You're not believing me a single thing
Words I don't want to hear
Spinning through my head
I guess I'm content with things are now

I'm not feeling sorry
I can still go on
I can still stand up
My heart is becoming stone

I'm feeling exhausted now
I will have to use you from now on

Even if I wanted to be honest
My words wouldn't leave my mouth
Being used to be the bad one
I don't really care anymore
I guess you're really just a tool to me

I guess I'll be crashing
Under the weight
Of the person
I can't pretend to be anymore

Even if I wanted to be honest
I'm not sure what I could say
Being tormented by the words
I can't say

Since I can't be honest and
You're not believing me a single thing
I guess I'm content with things are now
I guess you're really just a tool to me
I wonder if this is true after all
Or am I trying to lie to myself

Letter to AN

This sick, twisted mind of mine
Has finally gone so mad
I'm writing letters to myself
I don't seem to know any way out
So I'm finally writing a letter to you

Taunting myself, tainting my hearts
The words I once said
Are probably tormenting me more than you

What you call pretentious
Is this sadist heart of mine
Feeling ecstasy
While you writhe in pain

What you call disgusting
Is this masochist heart of mine
Feeling joy
Whilst being stomped upon

Going nowhere, having lost my way
The words I once said
Are still not letting me rest a single day

What I want to do
Keeps being prevented
By this sadist heart of mine
I want to hurt you more

What I want to say
Keeps being held up
By this masochist heart of mine
I want to feel more pain

I can't seem to find any way
To stay sane
Please hurry up and kill me
With this knife I just handed to you

What I want to do
Keeps being prevented
By this sadist heart of mine
I want to hurt you more

What I want to say
Keeps being held up
By this masochist heart of mine
I want to feel more pain

The words I want to address to you
They just won't leave my mouth
Am I finally going mad?

This sick, twisted mind of mine
Has finally gone so mad
I'm writing letters to myself
I don't seem to know any way out
So I'm finally writing a letter to you

Letter to M

Someone please hit me for the words I just said to you
Someone please strangle me for the things I did to you

My mind crashes
Aimlessly rolling on the ground
Somebody's shoe lands on my head

Probably it won't mean anything tomorrow
Surely, it'll be alright

My cries nobody can hear are vanishing into thin air
My tears nobody can see are disappearing into the cloth
Stabbing repeatedly, over and over again,
Into this masochist heart of mine

Someone please cut me for the coldness you're feeling now
Someone please kill me for the pain you're abandoned in

My head rolls
Tumbling, falling, crashing my body stops
A cold carcass in a warm puddle

Surely it means so much today
Probably, with these hands,
I'm going to die

My muffled voice won't reach you, even if I yell
My broken arms won't reach you, even if I stretch
Strangling myself, over and over again,
This masochist mind of mine

Even if today means nothing to me,
All I do will have a meaning tomorrow
A try to go back to something we used to have
It feels like I will never see your smile again

My muffled voice won't reach you, even if I yell
My broken arms won't reach you, even if I stretch
I'm trying to kill myself as much as I can,
Today, tomorrow, and the day after
But as I still won't die today,
Stabbing repeatedly, over and over again,
Into this masochist heart of mine

Letter to S

Let's just say that I can't see you anymore
Let's just say that maybe you're the source of my pain

Seeing you freeze up, shivering, shrivelling up in fear
Crushing your prideful heart with my hands

Probably it won't mean a thing tomorrow
Surely, it'll be fine

This sadist heart is playing way around too much
I won't be able to put up these shards again
Of the heart I threw
Onto the ground
With all my might

Let's just say you'll slap me right into the face
Let's just say I'll just laugh my heart out right after

Holding back my aching heart, saying cruel words
Biting back my salty tears, smiling dreadfully

Surely it means a whole lot today
Probably, in my hands,
You just died

This sadist mind is toying with your fragile heart
It just kinda slipped out of my hands
Now it's all on the ground,
The parts I can't
Put together again

I wonder if I'm laughing, or whether I'm crying
This savage, unkind, twisted soul of mine
Is condemned to wander around
In anguish forever

This sadist heart is playing way around too much
I won't be able to put up these shards again
Of the heart I threw
Now it's all on the ground,
The parts I can't
Put together again

Walking Dead

As I'm walking ahead, there are no thoughts making me stop.
As I'm walking ahead, I won't drop to my knees.

My feelings being erased, my heart being taken,
I don't cry, I won't cry, I can't cry anymore.

"Honour" and "pride", don't stop walking.
"Just a little more" and "you can do it", don't stop walking.

Never stop walking.

If my heart stops beating, I wonder what I'd be thinking.
If my heart stops beating, I wonder what I'd be doing.
I wonder how far I'd have gotten, how big I'd have become.
"Stronger", "weaker", "hero", "failure",
I keep on walking with gnawing jaws.

As I'm walking ahead, nobody can stop me.
As I'm walking ahead, I won't go down.

"Strength" and "dignity", don't stop walking.
"I believe in you" and "you got this", don't stop walking.

Never stop walking.

If I can't go on anymore, I wonder what I'd be thinking.
If I can't go on anymore, I wonder what I'd be doing.
I wonder how far I'd have gotten, what I'd have become.
"Weaker", "smaller", "failure", "loser",
I keep on walking, my knees are giving in.

"Honour" and "pride", don't stop walking.
"Just a little more", "you can do it", don't stop walking.
Humankind is counting on you.
"Strength" and "dignity", don't stop walking.
"I believe in you", "you got this", don't stop walking.
Society is watching you.
"Justice" and "morality", don't stop walking.
"Give it your best", "try harder", don't stop walking.
Everyone's looking.

My back's becoming more heavy, my legs are tired.
My head's aching, my eyes are burning.
My heart's bursting, my eyes are bleeding.
My lungs are imploding, my intestines are tearing.

Don't stop walking.

If I can't go on anymore, I wonder what I'd be thinking.
If I can't go on anymore, I wonder what I'd be doing.
I wonder how far I'd have gotten, what I'd have become.
"Weaker", "smaller", "failure", "loser",
I keep on walking, my knees are giving in.

If my heart stops beating, I wonder what I'd be thinking.
If my heart stops beating, I wonder what I'd be doing.
I wonder how far I'd have gotten, how big I'd have become.
"Stronger", "weaker", "hero", "failure",
I keep on walking with gnawing jaws.

"I want to make you proud", the words won't leave my throat.
"I gave it my best", it's a lie.
"I could have done it", it's all so desperate.
"Please believe me", nobody is listening.

Never stop walking.

Somebody...
"Help me", the words just won't leave my throat.